Monday, 21 June 2010

Oh why oh why do bird fly so high...

Okay, well where to begin?I dunno guess with all the family finally gone the house feel empty and that atmosphere just seems to have disappeared away from everything. I have the worst headache ever and my body is ache all over for no reason, mainly one place i was verbally complaining about the other day. I hate my body right now, it's so boyish but fat and disgusting. My face is so spotty and horrible too at the moment. I am probably wasting my time, and at the moment there is only one good thing in my life - YOU. Everything else just seems to be failing like it doesn't want to work or anything. School was the biggest piece of shit ever,I had to do a dissection, what a bloody joke. Was so sick and repulsive. KIDNEY. And everyone has started talking about university and stuff and seeing universities and i have no idea as to what i want to do, everyone is good at something and I'm rubbish at everything, seriously i just don't feel special atm and am not in love with my body.

The unattractive feeling i have right now is the most unbelievable thing and the ability to seek approval by your people make me scared they will dislike or hate me, and i am petrified about it all.

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