you know i thought it would be easy to start up a friendship with people but it's a much harder thing to do than i had originally planned, right now i feel the lonliest person i have every felt, every lunch time i wander round wondering what to do with myself, every break i sit and wonder who to talk to, or more to the point where to go.
it's not that i didn't make friends i did but the thing is making individual friensds is hard for a group, and when i did make friends with a grop they aren't what they seem to be honest. it's just hard. I know i should intergrate but i don't think people truely grasp the true reality and tension within this place.
I am currently sitting alone drinking tea, and wondering where i went wrong, wondering if i have passed my exams this two month wait just seems to be taking forever.
I just wish i was 18 tbh.
WISH WISH WISH.
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