I dont know when I lost my mind, maybe when I
made
you mine, woah, I dont know when I lost my mind,
maybe it was everytime, you said, you said, you
said,
that I miss you, more than I let on, I kissed you
for far too long, I'll let go as soon as you do,
see I know we're not through.
and i miss you, i miss our way, i miss your smiles to me, and i dunno when i lost my way but i have.
Tuesday, 1 November 2011
Tuesday, 18 October 2011
Give me love
tears stream down my face as i write this, the thought of losing you the thought of you not accepting me for who i am and the thought that i'm not good enough, my hands are slipping from your grip, your faith in me is being lost. just hold me in your arms and tell me it will all be okay..
Give me love like her,
'Cause lately I've been waking up alone.
paint spotted tear drops on my shirt,
told you I'd let them go.
And i'll fight my corner,
maybe tonight I'll call ya,
after my blood turns into alcohol,
no i just wanna hold ya,
Give a little time to me,
we'll burn this out,
We'll play hide and seek,
to turn this around,
all i want is the taste that your lips allow,
my my, my my oh give me love,
my my, my my oh give me love,
my my, my my oh give me love,
my my, my my oh give me love,
my my, my my give me love.
give me love like never before,
'cause lately I've been craving more.
and it's been a while but i still feel the same,
maybe I should let you go
you know i'll fight my corner,
and that tonight I'll call ya,
after my blood, is drowning in alcohol,
no i just wanna hold ya,
give a little time to me,
we'll burn this out,
We'll play hide and seek,
to turn this around,
all i want is the taste that your lips allow,
my my, my my, oh give me love give a little time to me,
we'll burn this out
We'll play hide and seek,
to turn this around all i want is the taste that your lips allow
my my, my my, oh give me love my my,
my my oh give me love, my my,
my my oh give me love, my my,
my my oh give me love, my my,
my my give me love.
my my, my my, oh give me love..(x12)
(Break)
Of all the money e'er I had
I've spent it in good company
And all the harm e'er I've done
Alas it was to none but me
And all I've done for want of width
To memory now I can't recall
So fill to me the parting glass
Good night and joy be with you all
Of all the comrades e'er I had
They are sorry for my going away
And all the sweethearts that e'er I had
They would wish me one more day to stay
But since it falls unto my lot
That I should rise and you should not
I'll gently rise and I'll softly call
Good night and joy be with you all
A man may drink and not be drunk
A man may fight and not be slain
A man may court a pretty girl
And perhaps be welcomed back again
But since it has so ordered been
By a time to rise and a time to fall Come fill to me the parting glass Goodnight and joy be with you all Goodnight and joy be with you all
I can't loose you, fight for it steph and don't give up.
Give me love like her,
'Cause lately I've been waking up alone.
paint spotted tear drops on my shirt,
told you I'd let them go.
And i'll fight my corner,
maybe tonight I'll call ya,
after my blood turns into alcohol,
no i just wanna hold ya,
Give a little time to me,
we'll burn this out,
We'll play hide and seek,
to turn this around,
all i want is the taste that your lips allow,
my my, my my oh give me love,
my my, my my oh give me love,
my my, my my oh give me love,
my my, my my oh give me love,
my my, my my give me love.
give me love like never before,
'cause lately I've been craving more.
and it's been a while but i still feel the same,
maybe I should let you go
you know i'll fight my corner,
and that tonight I'll call ya,
after my blood, is drowning in alcohol,
no i just wanna hold ya,
give a little time to me,
we'll burn this out,
We'll play hide and seek,
to turn this around,
all i want is the taste that your lips allow,
my my, my my, oh give me love give a little time to me,
we'll burn this out
We'll play hide and seek,
to turn this around all i want is the taste that your lips allow
my my, my my, oh give me love my my,
my my oh give me love, my my,
my my oh give me love, my my,
my my oh give me love, my my,
my my give me love.
my my, my my, oh give me love..(x12)
(Break)
Of all the money e'er I had
I've spent it in good company
And all the harm e'er I've done
Alas it was to none but me
And all I've done for want of width
To memory now I can't recall
So fill to me the parting glass
Good night and joy be with you all
Of all the comrades e'er I had
They are sorry for my going away
And all the sweethearts that e'er I had
They would wish me one more day to stay
But since it falls unto my lot
That I should rise and you should not
I'll gently rise and I'll softly call
Good night and joy be with you all
A man may drink and not be drunk
A man may fight and not be slain
A man may court a pretty girl
And perhaps be welcomed back again
But since it has so ordered been
By a time to rise and a time to fall Come fill to me the parting glass Goodnight and joy be with you all Goodnight and joy be with you all
I can't loose you, fight for it steph and don't give up.
Tuesday, 6 September 2011
Screw Up..
It always like something is going perfectly then bammm it hits you like a ton of bricks, it can be the smallest or the largest of things but it stll happens and is still there and you know it, subconsciously it's there at the back of your mind.
It makes you wonder how you are ever going to change it doesn't it? like i wonder how i'm ever going to be completely satisfactory to you all, and how i am ever going to be excepted by all, but you get to realise that we won't all be accepted by all will we? we can't all be liked, but it still persits to bug you, because those who have made you realise the fault are those you are truly trying to please.
well i am trying and i have changed, i do so much for these people that for once it would be nice to not be moaned at, it would be nice to have them compliment me, say thank you etc. But then for once it would be nice if i didn't screw it up again....
It makes you wonder how you are ever going to change it doesn't it? like i wonder how i'm ever going to be completely satisfactory to you all, and how i am ever going to be excepted by all, but you get to realise that we won't all be accepted by all will we? we can't all be liked, but it still persits to bug you, because those who have made you realise the fault are those you are truly trying to please.
well i am trying and i have changed, i do so much for these people that for once it would be nice to not be moaned at, it would be nice to have them compliment me, say thank you etc. But then for once it would be nice if i didn't screw it up again....
Wednesday, 22 June 2011
All Left Alone..
you know i thought it would be easy to start up a friendship with people but it's a much harder thing to do than i had originally planned, right now i feel the lonliest person i have every felt, every lunch time i wander round wondering what to do with myself, every break i sit and wonder who to talk to, or more to the point where to go.
it's not that i didn't make friends i did but the thing is making individual friensds is hard for a group, and when i did make friends with a grop they aren't what they seem to be honest. it's just hard. I know i should intergrate but i don't think people truely grasp the true reality and tension within this place.
I am currently sitting alone drinking tea, and wondering where i went wrong, wondering if i have passed my exams this two month wait just seems to be taking forever.
I just wish i was 18 tbh.
WISH WISH WISH.
it's not that i didn't make friends i did but the thing is making individual friensds is hard for a group, and when i did make friends with a grop they aren't what they seem to be honest. it's just hard. I know i should intergrate but i don't think people truely grasp the true reality and tension within this place.
I am currently sitting alone drinking tea, and wondering where i went wrong, wondering if i have passed my exams this two month wait just seems to be taking forever.
I just wish i was 18 tbh.
WISH WISH WISH.
Monday, 6 June 2011
Promise to be honest and answer every question?
promise
Have you ever showered with someone?
Yep.
Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
Of course, he's my little Christian ;)
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
With Him.
What were you doing an hour ago?
Driving
Where is your mom right now?
Standing in the Hallway
What are you doing tomorrow?
Exam and then I'm going to work
Tonight?
Revising
Other than yours who's bed were you on last?
Someone in Sandbanks, but technically Chris's bed down there
What did you do for Valentine's Day?
Saw Christian of Course :)
Is there somebody in your life that you could not survive without?
YES
Who was the last person to cook for you?
Bezzy?
Will you talk to someone on the phone tonight?
Maybe
Are you anyone's first love?
Bloody Hope So.
When is the next time you will kiss someone?
Soon.
Are you afraid of falling in love?
No.
Made any new regrets this year?
Nope.
Do you hate the last girl you were talking to?
Erm my mum, nope!
Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
Erm yer to put after sun on!
Think a lot before you fall asleep?
Not as much as i used to, these days i let my thoughts drift into jeans.
Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
Jeans
Is there a person of the opposite gender on your mind?
Yess
Can you see a cat from where you're sitting?
Don't have one.
Who were you last in the car with?
Driving instrctor
Who was driving the car?
Me :)
Do you miss the way things used to be?
Nope, I quite like the ones of today
What's the one thing that always gets you through the day?
Chris, Family, Friends and food obviously
Are you ticklish?
Yes. Ask ANYONE
Would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh?
Nope
What's the biggest annoyance in your life right now?
Not being free
How many hours did you sleep last night?
8?
How many mirrors do you have in your room?
4
What do you prefer: cats or dogs?
dogs
Do you own a Nintendo Gamecube and play it regularly?
No nintentdo WII
Who was the last person you texted?
Chriss
promise
Have you ever showered with someone?
Yep.
Do you still talk to the person you fell hardest for?
Of course, he's my little Christian ;)
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now?
With Him.
What were you doing an hour ago?
Driving
Where is your mom right now?
Standing in the Hallway
What are you doing tomorrow?
Exam and then I'm going to work
Tonight?
Revising
Other than yours who's bed were you on last?
Someone in Sandbanks, but technically Chris's bed down there
What did you do for Valentine's Day?
Saw Christian of Course :)
Is there somebody in your life that you could not survive without?
YES
Who was the last person to cook for you?
Bezzy?
Will you talk to someone on the phone tonight?
Maybe
Are you anyone's first love?
Bloody Hope So.
When is the next time you will kiss someone?
Soon.
Are you afraid of falling in love?
No.
Made any new regrets this year?
Nope.
Do you hate the last girl you were talking to?
Erm my mum, nope!
Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
Erm yer to put after sun on!
Think a lot before you fall asleep?
Not as much as i used to, these days i let my thoughts drift into jeans.
Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
Jeans
Is there a person of the opposite gender on your mind?
Yess
Can you see a cat from where you're sitting?
Don't have one.
Who were you last in the car with?
Driving instrctor
Who was driving the car?
Me :)
Do you miss the way things used to be?
Nope, I quite like the ones of today
What's the one thing that always gets you through the day?
Chris, Family, Friends and food obviously
Are you ticklish?
Yes. Ask ANYONE
Would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh?
Nope
What's the biggest annoyance in your life right now?
Not being free
How many hours did you sleep last night?
8?
How many mirrors do you have in your room?
4
What do you prefer: cats or dogs?
dogs
Do you own a Nintendo Gamecube and play it regularly?
No nintentdo WII
Who was the last person you texted?
Chriss
Saturday, 9 April 2011
Friends, Love and Laughter.
Three key things in life don't you think, it's funny because you tend to forget that without them life just seems to be boring. Let's just take a moment to view them separately.
Friends, it always the friends that aren't constantly there but when you need a shoulder to cry on they come to you, it's the friends that don't try and find all your gossip out and spread it that are there the most. It's also the people who you can go years without talking to and yet they are still the same with you when you've not seen them. Sometimes it's the ones who know what to say or do when you just feel lost. It's amazing how i can view some people the way they are and yet my friends view them the same, those little glances to each other. Something i can be sure of is I've got friends.
Laughter is one thing that i will always have, even the little giggliest make me happy.
Love it's not just a thing you can't live without because it's nice and amazing, but it's also the one thing that teaches you lessons in life, shows you your mistakes and just makes you view yourself for who you really are. It takes a long time for something to develop like this, and the many forms can sometimes makes it hard to distinguish between them. All you can conclude is there are always those who love you regardless, and those who will love you making a last impact, and it's those things that should always be remember.
Friends, Love and Laughter. Story of my life.
Friends, it always the friends that aren't constantly there but when you need a shoulder to cry on they come to you, it's the friends that don't try and find all your gossip out and spread it that are there the most. It's also the people who you can go years without talking to and yet they are still the same with you when you've not seen them. Sometimes it's the ones who know what to say or do when you just feel lost. It's amazing how i can view some people the way they are and yet my friends view them the same, those little glances to each other. Something i can be sure of is I've got friends.
Laughter is one thing that i will always have, even the little giggliest make me happy.
Love it's not just a thing you can't live without because it's nice and amazing, but it's also the one thing that teaches you lessons in life, shows you your mistakes and just makes you view yourself for who you really are. It takes a long time for something to develop like this, and the many forms can sometimes makes it hard to distinguish between them. All you can conclude is there are always those who love you regardless, and those who will love you making a last impact, and it's those things that should always be remember.
Friends, Love and Laughter. Story of my life.
Wednesday, 5 January 2011
New Year, New Start, New Me
As if it seems that all people do these days is try and 'reinvent' themselves just when something goes bad. When all is bad in your life how do you think reinventing yourself is really going to change the way you act and the way you present yourself, will it really delete all the crap that has happened in the past, all the grudge? No so think again
Really what i would say was a good option is that you take on board what other says and tell them to fuck off! At the end of the day if they cannot accept you for who you are, or if you do not want to change is their friendship etc really worth it all? Like honestly i know we all moan at each other etc but i wouldn't ever expect someone to change unless they truely wanted to, because when you think about it if they don't realy wanna change is there much point, maybe that's just my way of thinking.
Also coming to my attention is that i really need to kick my arse into gear, like the reality of everything is not just going to fall into place, like honestly steph get a grip. I was thinking the other day that no one can motivate themselves but motivating itself. Confusing i know but that's just what i like to say I'm confusing and that is all..
I was going to write all about 2010 but at the end of the day why dwell on the past, look to the future as you can change that. I just need to remember how lucky i am to have the friends, family and everything i have around me.
KThanksBye x
Really what i would say was a good option is that you take on board what other says and tell them to fuck off! At the end of the day if they cannot accept you for who you are, or if you do not want to change is their friendship etc really worth it all? Like honestly i know we all moan at each other etc but i wouldn't ever expect someone to change unless they truely wanted to, because when you think about it if they don't realy wanna change is there much point, maybe that's just my way of thinking.
Also coming to my attention is that i really need to kick my arse into gear, like the reality of everything is not just going to fall into place, like honestly steph get a grip. I was thinking the other day that no one can motivate themselves but motivating itself. Confusing i know but that's just what i like to say I'm confusing and that is all..
I was going to write all about 2010 but at the end of the day why dwell on the past, look to the future as you can change that. I just need to remember how lucky i am to have the friends, family and everything i have around me.
KThanksBye x
Tuesday, 14 December 2010
Thursday, 9 December 2010
They say things come in three....
You know considering everything this year you would think things would only go up, but no this world is just evil. Honestly nothing has improved it started well this year and has gradually gone down hill i just wish for it to be over.
it's really not fair when you think about things is it, there are so many people ungrateful for what you want and yet you can't have it. Nature is being unfair and it saddens me to see you do distressed not just you but everyone else to, i hope you realise that if i could i would give it all to you and help you out but things are too complicated.
The mind's a confusing place and sometimes my just get cluttered up a lot, see i don't mean to be distracted etc that is just my state of mind and what i am like i am unsure as to why i am like that but i am, it annoys me because all i wanna do is show you the world, and how much you mean to me but i never seem to get the chance, say the right thing, or we never have the time together. I will say though you have been so good to me this year and pretty much there through everything and for that i am really grateful for you. Even if you don't realise.
it's really not fair when you think about things is it, there are so many people ungrateful for what you want and yet you can't have it. Nature is being unfair and it saddens me to see you do distressed not just you but everyone else to, i hope you realise that if i could i would give it all to you and help you out but things are too complicated.
The mind's a confusing place and sometimes my just get cluttered up a lot, see i don't mean to be distracted etc that is just my state of mind and what i am like i am unsure as to why i am like that but i am, it annoys me because all i wanna do is show you the world, and how much you mean to me but i never seem to get the chance, say the right thing, or we never have the time together. I will say though you have been so good to me this year and pretty much there through everything and for that i am really grateful for you. Even if you don't realise.
Tuesday, 30 November 2010
Prepared for a long one, got my cuppa.
Now i would say yes i am feeling massively better but the thing is my motivation just seems to be completely lost, at the beginning of the year i felt so positive and i know it;s still there but the thing is what is there to be motivated for. When you do your work but get no results it's slightly dissatisfying. I hate people who breeze through life and yet still believe they have problems well no there are some of us who have to work for it.
It's amazing though as you really do find who your true friends are you know that because as much as you say you are my friend etc you really don't seem to show it, and i love those friendships you can leave for days on end but still go back to them and they are completely the same. Catching up with an old friend in the snow today seriously made me have a different out look on life and it's crazy there are something not worth moaning about.
Tbh i feel as though i need to find something to motivate me, i am trying school i really am but there are just so many two faced people who push you down just when you've got the strength to get back up again! It's hard but then that's what life is about eh?
Renovovation :
- money saving
- effort making
- cheery kinda girl
PRIORITISE XX
It's amazing though as you really do find who your true friends are you know that because as much as you say you are my friend etc you really don't seem to show it, and i love those friendships you can leave for days on end but still go back to them and they are completely the same. Catching up with an old friend in the snow today seriously made me have a different out look on life and it's crazy there are something not worth moaning about.
Tbh i feel as though i need to find something to motivate me, i am trying school i really am but there are just so many two faced people who push you down just when you've got the strength to get back up again! It's hard but then that's what life is about eh?
Renovovation :
- money saving
- effort making
- cheery kinda girl
PRIORITISE XX
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